I have an urge to start studying piano again. I used to hate learning finger exercises such as Czerny. As we all know, basics are important in whatever you do, once you achieve mastery of your basics, you cement a firm and strong foundation for whatever you are doing. My piano interest was simple. Very simple indeed. It all began with Fantasie (Fantasy?) Impromptu composed by Fredryk Chopin, introduced to me by a certain Benjamin Kirk (one of my most influential friends during my younger days). Never have I heard a melody so beautiful and so mesmerizing. Never have I thought a piece like that existed, neither did I expect the technicalities it seeked. I feel out of touch with my past, i want to enjoy making music once again. I want my old life back. A life that was happy and carefree. I miss many of my friends, some of which I may never see again. Our lives are determined by our interests, the type of friends we make, how people see us and our attitude to life. As we grow older, we lose many of these things, but fortunately we gain new ones. I think its all a matter of letting go of our past... Savant at 2/29/2004 10:37:00 am ; (0) comments I'm back! Survived 7 days out in the field... Got to say it ain't too bad. Well, I'm in a welfare company so naturally field camp would be very much more fun and relaxed. Got introduced to section tactics and firing movements. It ain't easy at all, unlike what you see in the movies. You're sweating and you're hot, there are insects everywhere and you'll run out of breath running from cover to cover. The food was bad too, ok la... not too bad. We had combat rations. Our food came in the form of pasta and rice sealed in vacuum packs. Got to squeeze the stuff out to eat it. We moved from one location to another. We went to rubber plantations and oil palm plantations, typical Malaysian-type environments. We had to route march there and it was extrememly tiring heaving a fucking big field pack on your back. On the last day, we went to the reclaimed land. That place was beautiful. Where in Singapore could you find a large expanse of land with absolutely no buildings in sight? Not to mention the free airshows (courtesy of Asian Aerospace 2004) and fresh air that we got. Sometimes i felt as if i was in an adventure camp, hardly tough at all... Oh yes did i mention that our company got two baths during our 7 day camp? Haha, no other company has such a thing... Savant at 2/27/2004 09:37:00 pm ; (0) comments Regret for wasted time is more wasted time. How time flies. One of my schoolmates messaged me about how stressed he was studying for the As. Its been quite a while since I last "studied", and it only makes me realise where I'd come from and where I was going to go. Live range's this week, can't wait to get down and fire my weapon. After this week, it'll immediately be field camp. 7 days of jungle training. Mud, digging, sweat, dirt, mosquitoes, wild animals, snakes, scorpions, insects, firing of our weapons, learning sectional tactics and eating combat rations. Its gonna be a tough week. Hopefully these 2 weeks would zoom by fast enough. I'm starting to miss some people much more, namely my family and a few others, but at the same time, I feel I'm getting closer to my section and platoon mates (in a non-gay kind of way). Nevertheless, it can be quite frustrating seeing dicks and bums everynight. It ain't right, it kills my libido.. Savant at 2/15/2004 03:13:00 pm ; (0) comments Saturday the 14th.... Never in my life did so many things happen at once. No pen can describe how i feel . Booked out on Saturday morning just to book in again on Sunday evening. Won't be back until after 2 weeks... That's right, 2 weeks confinement, its shit. Its shit, life's shit. Everything's changed, everything's turned 180 degrees I hate people, i hate you... Savant at 2/14/2004 02:02:00 pm ; (0) comments Its Saturday already. One day left before I book in. Next week, we're having range practice, that is, in lay man terms, firing our weapons. I'm looking forward to firing my weapon, not much sense having a weapon when all you do, is just strip and clean it right? Talked to some of my friends, seems like they have done a lot already compared to my company. I think Scorpion company is really too slack. People say we're an warrant officer company, I say we're an welfare officer company... I can't seem to stop coughing. My friend says its the water there. I don't think there are water pipes from Singapore in Tekong, so most probably the water comes from a reservoir somewhere. This cough is such a common thing that it has come to being called the Tekong Cough. I guess the water we're drinking contains lots of minerals, bacteria, dead body parts, mud, soil, pee and all that.... Not to mention the drinks they serve in the cookhouse, never did occur to me where they get their water from... Oh well, like I have a choice. Its been 4 lousy boring weeks, and its only going to get lousier. "have you ever wondered, why must we serve? Because we have no choice and we lan lan have to serve, have to servvvvveee" Savant at 2/07/2004 06:14:00 pm ; (0) comments The week was boring. Its lower limb week, this means no running or any leggy activities. My friend told me its because too much exercise causes suicidal tendencies in the 3rd week. Anyway, this week was boring, did alot of nothing. Came home today because i was one of the feel lucky ones who got silver for IPPT Cat test last sat. The rest are going home tomorrow. I'm tired and I'm beat and i'm going to bed...... Savant at 2/06/2004 11:59:00 pm ; (0) comments Today is book-in day, never ever had I experienced such boredom during my weekends. This week was cruel, boring and painful... Enough said... Time to leave my home... Savant at 2/02/2004 06:25:00 pm ; (0) comments Came back yesterday afternoon. The reason why I'm only updating my blog now is because during the week, my internet was done due to unknown reason.... As usual, everytime any other family member uses it it goes down, and in the end I am the one who fixes it. None of them even bother to help me find out the customer care number for starhub or whatever, everything's left to me... Anyway, back to where I was... Spent my 2nd week in camp. Got to say I have really gotten used to army life now, only thing that is really shitty is washing clothes and waiting for them to dry, other than that, there's not much stress. OK maybe there's one..... I get "stressed" seeing naked guys in the shower everyday. You see their bums, their pricks, even when you brush your teeth you see their dicks in the mirror... haha, hope I don't turn gay or anything. Its good to be out, other that regaining my libido, I get a chance to see my dear family and friends again. Missed my folks so much. Went out for steamboat with my pals last night at Marina. We were sitting at one end of the Chin Huat steamboat restaurant, somehow we were surrounded by the St Hilda's Boys Brigade. They were making so much noise, playing with their food and building towers with their drink cans. At the end they even had a lucky draw right in the place where they ate. Noisy fuckers... Went home after that. Felt abit sad, I was out but alone, no where to go as everyone was out doing their whatevers. Time is precious to me and I want to do as much as possible, but I can't force people to change their schedules just for the sake of going out with me. Stopped at clementi station to take bus 154, decided to buy some cough drops at 7-11, then decided to go to Paul's to collect my PS2 games. After that, it was bus all the way home. Gave me plenty of time to think of some stuff in my life. There's one thing that is really puzzling me right now, but I am afraid to ask, probably because I'm afraid to find out why... To sum up, Saturday night was fucking boring and lonely, today ain't gonna be better, none of my friends are free I think. Gonna go out for dinner with my folks at some hotel later, guess that's the only nice thing I'll be doing... See you guys... Savant at 2/01/2004 12:19:00 pm ; (0) comments
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